Mood:Pained
Song of Choice:"It's been a while" by Staind Acoustic version
Topic: Just let me be
Days That Have Passed Since I sent Eric's Letter: 3 Weeks and 3 days
Days Until Spring Break: 52

::Kim walks out mumbeling "I sit locked inside my head Remembering everything you've said This silence gets us nowhwere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!" Kim sits down on stool:: Man...life's a bitch and then you die unfortunately...you don't die soon enough you gotta go through all this crap before it stops....::puts face in hands::Man...most of you are probably lost but hell I no more there then you are....even in my own words...you know what even if I can't do it in real life I'm gonna pretend I can do it here...so yes.

::Plus out guitar:: I always liked "Outside"'s rift but I think I'll do this one for now
And it's been awhile Since I could hold my head up high And it's been awhile Since I first saw you And it's been awhile Since I could stand on my own two feet again And it's been awhile Since I could call you And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've stretched myself beyond my means And it's been awhile Since I can say that I wasn't addicted And it's been awhile Since I can say I love myself as well And it's been awhile Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do And it's been awhile But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've gone and fucked things up again Why must I feel this way? Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day! And it's been awhile Since I could look at myself straight And it's been awhile Since I said I'm sorry And it's been awhile Since I've seen the way the candle lights your face And it's been awhile But I can still remember just the way you taste And everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me And it's been awhile Since I could hold my head up high And it's been awhile Since I said I'm sorry

lol I feel torn apart so I'll just keep going no one mind me I'm not going to talk about it here but know this I feel like crap and I'm a little angry and snippy and lonely and hurt and pretty fucking bad over all! But hell a decision is a decsion right? NEXT SET!!

And you Bring me to my knees Again All the times That I could beg you please In vain All the times That I felt insecure For you
But I leave My burdens at the door But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside your ugly Your ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you All the times That I felt like this won't end Was for you
And I taste What I could never have It's from you All the times That I've tried My intentions Full of pride But I waste More time than anyone But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside your ugly Your ugly like me
I can see through you See to the real you All the times That I've cried All this wasted It's all inside And I feel All this pain Stuffed it down It's back again And I lie Here in bed All alone I can't mend But I feel Tomorrow wil be OK But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in
I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside your ugly Your ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you

I think I'm done...I need to go to school...I need soltace...or a Silent Epiphany...

Farewell
~Kim~